Many of you know that I have been dealing with cancer issues with our Cat, Moby, for the past 6 months. Although we knew the time would come, making the choice was so hard.
Last week my husband told me he couldn't make the decision and very much needed me to help us move forward. We had to let go and it was quite hard. We doubted ourselves even though all the signs were there.
We had planned for a service to come to the house but Moby quickly declined and we ended up going to the Urgent Care instead; a few days earlier than planned. Fortunately they took good care of us and he passed away in my husbands arms.
Holding on is our way of freezing instead of admitting to what is present. We use words like 'should' or 'want' and when I hear those words I am careful. That is a good time to pause and take a step back. Re-evaluate that response and consider another way to look at that. Instead think about what is holding you back?
What are you afraid of? Or... what do you need? We won't get rid of pain or hurt but once we let go
we can reduce the extra pain that holding has. I am feeling that so much right now and with that we are taking time to grieve. This will include self-care, quiet time and making sure we eat even when we don't want to.
--Paige